Truth telling time. On Friday, my internet will be disconnected. The cable company is coming to pick up their equipment and I will be virtually in the dark. (see what I did there?)
We have some debt we are attacking head on and to do so we are eliminating any unnecessary spending. That includes internet. I'm not sure what that will mean for Prairie Hen. I still have so many ideas, thoughts and experiences to share. And I have other ways to access the internet. I still have my phone for cryin' out loud! My goal is to continue blogging regularly- I will just have to be a lot more intentional about my hows and whens. And because I can't guarantee how much I will be frequenting this space I have removed my sponsorship program. I can't, in good conscience, accept money from others when I don't know how much exposure they will get.
The timing seems pretty craptacular but I am choosing to trust God. He is fanning the flame in my soul and this blogging platform has been such a great place to learn, connect and grow with you all! My heart is tempted to be scared. To feel like this has all been a waste and is meaningless in real life but I know God is working here and with me and I refuse to give those lies any weight.
In my church community group the other night we were joking around about weird Christian stuff. Like when asking for prayer requests and someone replies with "unspoken". DID YOU EVER DO THAT!? I did. Let's really think about it for a minute. We are coming together as a group of believers and followers of Christ. Trying to grow deeper in our relationship with him and with each other in him. We have a need or circumstance that we want to trust God to carry or fix BUT WE DON'T WANT ANYONE TO KNOW ABOUT IT! What?!? Isn't that kind of the opposite of the whole purpose of getting together and praying for each other? Vulnerability. Accountability. Faith. Truth! It really doesn't make sense.
My point in saying the above is that, if I could, I would like to ask for your prayers. Please pray for peace in my heart. My selfishness is having a hard time handing the reigns of my internets over to God. My unreasonable fear is telling me that I will never blog again and that I will be alone. (ridiculous, I know). Pray for persistence for my family. We are choosing to do what is best for us and not what is most fun, or easiest, or even normal! But mostly pray that I can learn to trust God fully with all of my stuff (even the internet).
Now that I have got all of that off my chest, I will probably end up blogging every day for the rest of forever and this whole post will be needless. Fingers crossed.